It's my birthday.... so why am i not feeling particularly celebratory.... it feels as though i'm going through a quarter life crisis which does not allow me to enjoy this particular day.

why should we celebrate the supposed day we were born anyway? we were born and thats that. 

Each year that passes is as though telling you that another year went by without you doing anything that "memanfaatkan" your life. seriously.

its just another day... if it's like that to everyone else why should it be different to you..

just another day 

WHAT THE HELL IS IT HUH?!

what is it that bothers me most?

is it spm?

is it the amount coffee i've been consuming?

WHAT!??

FUCK ALL THIS FUCKING ANXIETY

screw all the tears
just screw it....

i've had enough..please just let me go

i've had enough i've had enough i've had enough i've had enough i've had enough i've had enough........
please

Run.
all i want to do is run.
run while i still can.
run from everything that has happened
run from the memories
run from my sins
run from the pain, pain that i feel and the pain that i've caused.
run from my thoughts
run from my feelings
run to the place where i can be blisfully ignorant.

run.
help me run.
help me runaway.

back

I realise that i only blog well when i'm not feeling happy or content or anything of the sort.

Sick Repetitive Cycle of my Sick love life.

Freaking karma is getting on my nerves. How do you break a cycle?

A cycle which inlcudes love,feelings,pain,karma.
how? please someone tell me how!?

I need to stop this before it pushes me over the edge. I need to stop this before i succumb to doing something stupid.

we all hate to break hearts and have our hearts broken.
But just imagine what its like to know WHO's heart you are going to break and who is going to break your heart.

isn't it just sick? Terrible! Revolting.

help.

i don't want to hurt you.
but i'm afraid i will.
i don't want to lose you as a confidant..
but i'm afraid i will.

i've already lost one confidant.
and that shattered me.
i dont think i can go through that again..

but it seems inevitable now.

hugs.

I guess what Vishal recently said was right [yet again]. I probably just need a good hug... it doesnt have to be from him.... just from someone i'm comfortable with. [which is pretty much a lot of people] But someone who'll make me feel safe. Like my friends. Thanks Vishal. Thanks Mirah.

Nicole come back... i desperately need one from you...

But sometimes if someone, anyone, were to hug you [albeit you know the person lah] would be nice too.....

sometimes all you need is a good hug.

and thats what i need as of this very moment.

sigh a million sighs

As they say, a picture is worth a thousand words. But when you think about it... a thousand words isn't really that much. This picture cannot describe the pain that i feel in my heart daily. This picture does not show how everyday, every minute...second... feels like a stab in the heart. How can you mend a broken heart? oh what a song. Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again. How?

....our love was comfortable...